Day 4

I am grateful that as people we are able to grow, change, adapt, and explore who we are and that which we want to be. I am grateful that we don't reach a certain point in our lives and have to remain that person forever. Would you be happy if you had to remain the exact person your are today for the rest of your life? We, and especially those of us here in the united states, are abel to reinvent ourselves as many times as we like in a life time, and we can continue to educate and develop ourselves till we see fit. And for this I am extremely grateful!

I think that over the past semester I learned a tremendous amount of things about myself, not just who I was as an artist so I could define it in an artist statement, but who I am in general / overall in this world. Over the last year I have explored who Im, who I can be, and who I want to be. And while I have learned a lot over this journey, I know I am no where near the end. The last four years have provided me with a roller-coster of questions about myself and pushed me to question where I am going. So whether a semester, a year, four years, or a lifetime I am grateful that I am able to explore options, question who I am, make mistakes, feel the world around me change and directions if I want to.

A few years ago my mother told me, "I'm really glad you changed" as she referenced who I was that day verses the person I was as a child and adolescent growing up with my family. While this may sound crass, so....... you didn't like the daughter I was when you were raising me, I know it was only meant as a true and pure compliment. And I know she loved/loves me very much. I took it as a mother recognizing pride in the person her daughter had become (even thought today I see myself light years from that person my mother had been talking to). Im not going to lie either, I see what she was saying, I was a bitch. I was a pretty mean and not very nice person for quite a while. Not every day, not all the time, I like to think that I was occasionally a nice friend and person. But, overall I can admit I was not the best person, and I am very grateful that I was able to change and grow as I learned about my self and advance toward the future. Have you always been the same person you are today? I imaging there are people that reach a certain point of self satisfaction and remain there, but for myself I can not remain that sedentary in personal development. Can you? Only time will tell who I am abel to become, only I can take my self there as I continue to develop my self. Better hold on and enjoy the ride!