Day 27

Suppose today I am celebrating the lack of any milestones in my life at the moment, today I am thankful that I am not pregnant, don't have a baby, nor am I expecting one any time soon! No, there was no pregnancy scare or anything like that. More like I am in this stage in my life where I feel like everyone around me is child consumed, either recently had one or is expecting one. Personally for myself I am thankful I am neither of the above! I feel that right now there is no way I could appropriately handle having a child! Don't get me wrong, I know that I will be a great mom, that I am very capable, possibly overly qualified, to have a baby and start a family. But, perhaps that's the thing, I know all that it takes and all that goes into it, I fully understand the responsibility and requirements, in many stages of life, that are required. And I know that I am not ready to commit to that, not right now. I am glad that some of my friends have found themselves in this wonderful, life changing experience, I am fully confident in all their abilities and know that they will all provide and do all that they can for their children. Im just thankful that at the moment I am not in the same boat, I am just not ready. I have seen first hand that people really need to be in the right place in their lives before they embark on such a journey, you need to have children for the right reasons and be properly committed, Otherwise, well, otherwise you end up truly effecting another human beings life maybe, not in the best of ways. Im thankful I can recognize this and understand that it is not my time, and that when I am ready, when Will and I are both ready, I will be able to say that I am thankful to be starting a family. But until then. . . .